Happy fourth

I hope all of you have a happy Fourth of July. Please be safe. It is a fun holiday but biggest drunk driving night of the year.

I have a story about my two Shihtzus got loos in upstate New York while some friends and myself were in Saratoga. The dog was at my friends house in Clifton park New York.

So next am my two friends drove to feed my dogs and come back 20 min away. Then I got a phone call that my dogs weren’t there. I thought it was joke that was not funny.

Well they did get loose! On Fourth of July! In upstate New York where there are a lot of woods and other animals.

So I look at my phone and there are missed calls. Both dogs were found by two different people. Buddha trotted to two neighborhoods over. And a family w a dog let him stay the night and reached me. The family that found mai tai three towns over not neighborhoods towns. And mai tai is a fear biter so they called animal control. They put him in doggy jail that was on the property of a real prison. And it was the Fourth of July weekend. I was out of my mind we got Buddha and went to the jail and they saw I wasn’t leaving without my mai tai and the vet came in and gave me mai tai. We donated 75 to the shelter for letting me have my baby. Now the hotel we were R didn’t allow dogs but at that point they weren’t leaving my sight. They were filthy. For some reason I think that probably was their wildest not running around like lunatics.

But I am very lucky both my dogs got loose on the Fourth of July with all the highways and bi ways and woods and I still got them back. So I truly believe they were meant to come back to me. Thank god. But still years later I wake up in the middle of the night to check they are in bed with me.

So hug ur pets and your family and be safe when your having fun!!

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Allergies and compassion omg

Since 2004 I have suffered from severe allergies. I never understood or had compassion and empathy or even understanding of how allergies can make you suffer. I am good today now but for two days it felt like I had fire aunts burning my eyes and scratching at them. They looked so red I can’t describe it in a way that would give it justice. I had to walk around even in my house with sunglasses on.

So for those of you that suffer allergies I totally understand and for those that don’t try to be understanding of friends that suffer allergies bc it’s not joke.

Happy Fourth of July

Sleep doesn’t work for me…

I wake up almost every night thinking about the people I have lost. It makes me so sad, so alone. I feel like no one gets it. They expect me to move on and forget or just appreciate the memories when the loss feels like a huge part of my heart will never be whole. I have had a great life and there is so much more in the future but how do you see that future that you know is there waiting for you when your heart is broken?

A Tough Year

Last spring my grandmother fell and she was in rehab and the hospital. Back and forth between the faculties a lot. In August she passed away. My grandmother raised me. Anything good in me was from her. I didn’t celebrate any holidays this past year and I am just getting clarity again. Yo be honest I feel as if I were in a fog and finally have woken up. It wasn’t that my life stopped it did not. But it was as if I were on autopilot. Like a blur. I still did what I needed to do and enjoyed things but the memories are just there but not “present” I am doing better been writing and doing my thing but wanted to emerge from my state and thank everyone who has been there for me. Those who reached out and just lent an ear or a hug. Thank you!

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Clarity and understanding

Just when you think you have a clue of things things change. There are always three sides to a story. But when people tell you the truth it’s the most important thing at least to me. And I see clearly and understand. I think when we have. Kings happen in our lives we need to know people also have their reasons and don’t jump the gun. Understand be compassionate and empathetic.🙏🏼

Not sleeping well is a regular thing these days

I’ll back and think ignorance is bliss til it’s not. I took time off from acting and modeling to work on my spirit I burned the candle at both ends. Now I am ready to get back to the grind. But I am doing books on amazon you can look up Kelly Kole and you will done my three ebooks. I am trying to get them in soft cover the damn program is making me nuts the last three days. I go e 110% at anything I do so I keep trying. Do don’t worry I will get them done. I want to get the recipe book done bc these are family recipes and I am not much for cooking but there are so many meat rubs which is perfect for spring!