A Tough Year

Last spring my grandmother fell and she was in rehab and the hospital. Back and forth between the faculties a lot. In August she passed away. My grandmother raised me. Anything good in me was from her. I didn’t celebrate any holidays this past year and I am just getting clarity again. Yo be honest I feel as if I were in a fog and finally have woken up. It wasn’t that my life stopped it did not. But it was as if I were on autopilot. Like a blur. I still did what I needed to do and enjoyed things but the memories are just there but not “present” I am doing better been writing and doing my thing but wanted to emerge from my state and thank everyone who has been there for me. Those who reached out and just lent an ear or a hug. Thank you!

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Clarity and understanding

Just when you think you have a clue of things things change. There are always three sides to a story. But when people tell you the truth it’s the most important thing at least to me. And I see clearly and understand. I think when we have. Kings happen in our lives we need to know people also have their reasons and don’t jump the gun. Understand be compassionate and empathetic.🙏🏼

Not sleeping well is a regular thing these days

I’ll back and think ignorance is bliss til it’s not. I took time off from acting and modeling to work on my spirit I burned the candle at both ends. Now I am ready to get back to the grind. But I am doing books on amazon you can look up Kelly Kole and you will done my three ebooks. I am trying to get them in soft cover the damn program is making me nuts the last three days. I go e 110% at anything I do so I keep trying. Do don’t worry I will get them done. I want to get the recipe book done bc these are family recipes and I am not much for cooking but there are so many meat rubs which is perfect for spring!

Not perfect

far from perfect. I have my faults I am human. I can say through experience that the mistakes I have made have made me a better person. I am more compassionate and empathetic where when ignorance was bliss I wasn’t. I pride myself on one thing honesty. Some would say I was a biatch bc I am too honest. But something my mom instilled by grounding me for lying for a whole summer. I learned to tell the truth. And to me that is very important in all relationships friends or otherwise.  My intent is good and again I can admit I am selfish some times too much. I am also vein I had aging at all. But who doesn’t lol. I just want people to know there really is so much more to me then people know. I am true July baby a cancer 🦀.. Hard on outside but truly soft on inside.🙏🏼

Knowing all along and not caring..

/sometimes people comwninto your life. You know not everything is True. But they are generous and at times you somewhere deep inside they see you for the person you are opening up, being funny, wanting to enjoy life. But meanwhile they don’t care and their life’s piles up and the shock hits you first. But then you know you realizes all along. Ifanok bc it’s not on me iranon the person who has been living a life of lies for years. And now I believe in fate, karma, and liars the dark always comes to the light. So o am food just when people say you find one or two real friend in life. It’s so true!